a bit eerie seeing myself write here two years ago, starting off my job. still at old navy. still in college. still with gianna. nothing has really changed at all in the past two years, except now i'm on antidepressants and my grandmother is dying. my dog is dying, too. both of cancer. but otherwise, it's like time has frozen. hoping to land an internship this summer. npr. slp. penguin. none of the above... god forbid. i don't know what awaits me after college. maybe nothing - more of the same. maybe time will freeze once again and two years from now i will, again, find myself in the same spot.

i wrote a poem but i won't share it here.

- jay