Heaven is a scruffy, bearded homeless man in a green neon vest who shouts out minimalistic symphonies whenever someone approaches him (at night, the sky looked like there was some type of huge meteor approaching and it kind of freaked me out)


Empty threat

3 songs down.
6 to go.


Changed my mind so much I can't even trust it, my mind changed me so much I can't even trust myself.

Name that tune (in the title... again)

My recording studio is moving into my piano teacher's studio for an hour and a half on Wednesday so I can record some piano. It's a really loud piano, so there's like a 100% chance that it's going to peak too much.

I should have at least another song done by next Wednesday.

2 songs down. 7 more to go.
(well. 3 kinda. but not really)



On my front page:


- An experiment that some critics say could create tiny black holes that would suck in the entire planet is halted after a malfunction."

Dave, you are so right.



Heimdalsgate Like A Promethean Curse

I'm eating popcorn.

Time at today's meet:




To Loaf And To Lark.

Title = album title idea.

I'm kind of worried about the Large Hadron Collider. I mean, my fears subsided after a while, but everyone was talking about it today, which kind of rekindled them.

As my (incredibly wise) chemistry teacher put it:
"What do you get when you mix positive and negative? Nothing."
"Look it at this way. If you're talking to someone and then you blink and nothing's there. Oops."

although he also said the UN was planning on trying to halt the project. I googled "LHC UN" and got nothing. He also said that it could spell the end of the universe. Which... probably DEFINITELY wouldn't happen. The end of our solar system? potentially. But the end of our universe... ehh...

1. Why couldn't you have built it in orbit? That might have at least slightly reduced the risk of us getting destroyed by a black hole.

2. You can't calm me down when EVERYTHING you're basing your experiment on is theory. It's theorized that Hawking radiation can evaporate small black holes in almost no time. It's theorized that no harm will be done. It's theorized that you'll actually find something with this machine.


In other news...
(If we're still alive at the end of this year) I'm hoping to release whatever I release next by the end of the year. I recorded another song today (Three Neighbo(u)rs) and... I'm liking the way it's sounding. I might send it to Zane or I might just keep it as is. It could be my like one incredibly stripped down song on the album.

That's about all of the news I have. Meet on Saturday.


(I've had that little ~-~ thing forever now. I just realized that. It's become habitual.)


i have a friend. he's mostly made of pain.

NAME THAT TUNE (in the title)

I feel like writing in small text today.
And lolspeak.
But i won't lolspeak here.
My parents and my aunt are behind me chatting up a storm on the deck. My aunt is moderately inebriated, Mom is talking to my sister on the phone, and my dad's cracking jokes left and right. My dog's laying down under my computer desk and it's virtually the cutest thing ever. It's 9:00 PM on a Monday, and I'm blogging.
I'm starting an Autumn sessions, to (kinda) pick up where the Summer Sessions left off.
I'll only be making videos once a week (Each Saturday, before 6:00 PM), but it'll at least make my channel alive again. It's been dead for almost a month.
So yeah. Starting that this week.
I tried to record Map With Odd Directions, but it didn't turn out all that great. I still have a few kinks to work out with my studio, and I need a better piano to record on. (This problem will be solved by me recording most of whatever I release next in my piano teacher's studio.)
My secret thing that isn't really much of a secret to be kept in the first place is that I'm probably going to make my next release full-length. Now, it's not going to be like a huge 16-track extravaganza, it's still going to be short. (Probably 9 or 10 tracks)
Here's what I'm looking at for a tracklist:
1. Graph Paper*
2. Adding to An Echo Chamber*
3. Map With Odd Directions*
4. Father No. 3
5. This Is Not A Dream*
6. Doppelganger*
7. The LHC - done already
8. Pack Mentality
9. Cyanide Lightyear*

* denotes a song that I'll most likely be recording at the piano studio.

I'm not entirely sure whether Slip Case will be going on. It doesn't really fit in.
The videosforpictures Youtube channel probably won't be up for much longer. All I can do is covers until I can get some of me music copyrighted, so I can't really use it. Dunno. Might post the occasional cover on it.
i've fallen into a bad habit of cracking my middle, index, and ring knuckles on my right hand. There's like a 100% chance that I'm going to have hand problems when I'm older. Constant piano playing, constant typing, knuckle thing. It's gonna bite me in the ass.
Band might be playing at a half-marathon at Hampton Beach in a few weeks. They don't know it yet. Because I just found out about it today.
That's all I feel like writing, kthxbyebyebyebyebye.




I don't want to be around when the black hole comes
I don't want to have to scream at the top of my lungs
As time slows to a halt and we get split in half
Nothing gets out of here alive.

General Life Vlog

Life update.

1. Ran two meets in the last three days
First meet = 23:04 (49th of 60)
Avg. mile = 7:26
Second meet = 23:24 (110th of 148)
Avg. mile = 7:32

I did surprisingly well in today's meet, seeing as how it was raining semi-hard, there were incredibly steep hills, and I felt winded halfway through. The first meet was virtually all flat.

Goal = break at least 22 minutes by the end of the season.

2. I'm working on mixing a track that will be part of something secret. (Could be a while until you know what I'm talking about. Secrets are fun.)

Should probably fill Zane in about it...

3. Radiohead's apparently already working on their next album. Ben Folds' new album comes out on the 30th. *head essplodes*

4. My cousin's wife is preggers (!) and my brother's getting married (!!!)

5. School's still preventing me from making any videos. But I might make one this weekend. At long last.

6. I've been thinking of album titles. Here are some that have come to mind
- Spaniard Shade
- Two Weeks Ago, You Were Eaten by A Turkey
- Product Placemints
- Pulse Stay Enter




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upsub chocorat.


Something's going on.

But I refuse to tell you what.


This is not a dream

All the government agents are sitting on the swings
All the little girls are told to wait their turn.

While the people on the streets get:
-tear gassed
-smoke grenaded
-beaten with sticks
-stoned and murdered
-knived and slaughtered
-dyin' of hunger
-dyin' of thirst
-dyin' from their lack of worth
-dyin' of malaria
-kicked and punched for wearing red
-kicked and punched for wearing blue
-kicked and punched for wearing white
-running low and food and gas
-envious of the people that pass
-fatter and fatter every day
-dumber and dumber every day
-to losing all their social skills
-to losing all their money on bills
-too focused on the media
-enveloped by the media
-swallowed by the media
-raped by the media
-told what they have to wear
-told what they have to say
-told who to vote for (but they'll never directly admit it)
-told what to buy BUY NOW
-told who to watch out for
-told to track this person down
-told about the final score
-told and told but you all want more.

This is not a dream.


Rethinking Life

And by rethinking life, I mean rethinking the EP. (just wanted an interesting title, I guess) School has sucked the living creativity out of me and my songwriting/thinking about music has been hindered as a result. I might just put the EP on hold until I can really: think things through/know what I'm doing/not have mounds of schoolwork every night.
I'm also thinking about doing the talent show at my school. I've been thinking about what I could possibly play there. LHC comes to mind, as well as Map With Odd Directions. (Singing out "Let's go get drunk in the back of your best friend's house" and the word SHIT at a school event would feel unbelievably refreshing)
I hate Doppelganger. I really do. I've tried to like it, I've tried to convince myself that it's good, but it's not... good. It's plain, the lyrics suck (although I do think that 'stay young and make sound' is the best line I've ever written), it takes too long to get anywhere. I could go on.
I don't get it. School's supposed to be a catalyst for being creative and thinking about things outside of school, but instead it's done the opposite for me this year. I've written one song (Doppleganger) since school started. Any playing at home is almost immediately interrupted upon the realization that I have hours of homework. I can't think. I can only work. I hate it.
My dog barks too much.



Record your message after the tone. *no tone*

Too much homework. I should be working on it now, but I need a break. I need time to think, however brief it may be...
New song up on tehMySpace called Silent Song.
See for yerself:
I wrote one the other day called "Doppelganger." Needs more work. But it's nice. I wrote it in my piano teacher's studio when she wasn't there. I didn't know if I had practice, so I went to the studio anyways. She wasn't there, but the door was unlocked, so I just kind of snuck in and played piano for 40 minutes. Complete solitude except for the noisy bartender school next door. I wrote Doppelganger and emerged from the studio incredibly happy. I felt great, and I couldn't even figure out why.

Let's lie to ourselves
Let's lie on our aching backs
Let's play tag or get lost in the woods
Let's be young again

I don't want to grow old
I just want to make sound
Stay young and make sound
Stay young and make sound

Let's (forgot the lyrics)
Let's (forgot the lyrics again)
Let's jump into a crowd and yell in their ear
Let's be live again

Chorus 2x

*I would say that I'll add those two lines in later, but I'd just be lying to you and myself.

I've also been thinking about speeding up Map With Odd Directions to give more of a change in pace. I've noticed that a lot of my songs fall into the same tempo range and I don't like that. Me likes teh variation.
I've been rethinking the tracklist a little:
1. Doppelganger
2. Map With Odd Directions
3. The LHC
4. Graph Paper
5. Adding to An Echo Chamber
6. Slip Case
7. Cyanide Lightyear

I don't know when/if this will ever be finished. I need a condenser microphone before I can do anything. Seeing that they aren't cheap, this might not even solve my sound problem, and the fact that my parents are totally anti-online shopping, it might be backed up until Christmas or later or never. I'm just being honest here.
Band played at a church barbeque on saturday. We managed to make 40 dollars which was awesome. And we got a nice little thank-you letter from a bunch of churchgoers. *smiles*
God, Rudy Guilani's repping McCain at the RNC right now and the crowd's being all 2 minute hate on Obama's ass. Kind of scary.

Crap. I need to finish HW.

Bye, everyone.